natalieee // linGz.
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004
andd. erm. knew abt something yesterday which made mi really confused ? its like. di told mi. if a guy is able to make a ger sad over him, that means most prob da ger likes da guy. but da thing is.. i didnt realise until i heard da news that he has a gf ?
yesterday night wanted to go beng`s hse rot, cos nearer mi hse.. easier to go home. but he told mi i cant go cos his gf wld get unhappy. i was like.. oook. asked him grace accept him le ? cos he told mi before he wanted to jio someone named grace mahh. n he said, his gf not grace.. is another gal. duno why, i felt so xin suan ?
its plain to see that since he cld jump from one target to another so quickly, he doesnt take rships seriously ? and da fact that wadever his ex gave him before, no matter who, he`ll still throw everything away. so why does my heart feel so squeezed now.
i really didnt noe how i felt until da moment when i learnt that he has a new gf. why shld i feel so bothered ? wad right do i have to feel so shitty. this just aint right. things arent sposed to be this way. im not sposed to like him. i dont wanna like him.
((dont be surprised if someday i`ll avoid u n be gone. its not cos uve done something wrong n i hate u, but becos im afraid to love n be hurt by someone who wont love mi back..))
just feel so confused right now. i shldnt care so much.
just wish hes happie with her, whoever she is.
i`ll just quietly disappear from his world. make things easier for everyone..
if only my heart doesnt feel so wrung.