#o9// swEEt drEams.

Friday, December 10, 2004

finally went ta da ICA building to do something about my ic today. haha. took mi long enough too !

well. first went ta da HP building there ta get money from aaron. aww.. i hate borrowing money man. hate da feeling of owing ppl.. bleahs. got da money from him, then headed down ta commonwealth mrt to meet with junning, cos hes accompanyin mi to remake my ic. hehe.

hmm. waited darn long there. omg then i had ta take da photo.. ew ! cos da person said my fringe was covering my eyebrow.. then he had mi pin it up. oh gosh. look so goondu-ed. heh then da person interviewed mi.. asked mi how i lost my ic. i said i took my dog swimming at sentosa and then my whole bag got stolen ! o0ps. then also said im a student like lanie jiejie told mi to. in da end.. only had to pay 60bucks instead of 100 ! woohoo. thankie jiejie !! hurhurhur.

after that, took mrt to orchard to meet junning`s fren stephen. think today all da transportation having grudge against mi n junning. lol. keep taking their darn own sweet time to come. hmm.. anw stephen looks like a cross between guoyuan n jimmy ? =X keke.. then rotted all over orchard. went ta far east shopping centre n watched em playing arcade. hahah. til 8pm.. went over ta wisma. cos swiss winds having a charity performance there.. after tt went home. nearly kena banged by bike.. LoL. cos i ran across da road without looking both sides.. looked only one side =X

now left ezlink n atm. yeah ~

hmm. then i discovered something.. i cant go to orchard around xmas times. somehow all da xmas decorations n everything will produce this sad sad feeling inside of mi. when i see all da decorations, something inside mi feels so wretched. so alone. BUT.. im just weird. so.. oh well.

nxt wk 13, 14, 15th Dec gonna have e2 chalet at pasir ris.. haha. im still trying to decide whether to go. cos yesternite online, i was in a conference with some of da e2 ppl.. and i realised, we`ve really drifted veh veh far apart. there were so many moments of silences. somehow i cant communicate well with em anymore.

i noe, its my fault for quitting sch n entering da society sooner. ive even prepared myself for this, knowing that after i dropout.. i can nv be as close with em anymore. but knowing all these doesnt lessen da pain inside. i look at all their graduation hitea photos, and im struck with this sense of envy. i can nv fully fit in with em again. im afraid that if i do turn up for da chalet, and we again keep running outta things to talk abt.. it`d really break my heart u noe.? i`d much prefer to keep my memories of da days we were so united together, and my fragile illusions that things are fine.

shut up. just shut up.

shld i go for da chalet then ? arGh.

twinkling*stars @ 10:27 PM