natalieee // linGz.


.ilu* lizhao =) #

`c0ng ni shen shang, w0 xue hui shen me shi ai yu bei ai..
dan ye ying er ni, w0 z0ng yu lia0 jie shen me shi shi wang__

:+: diz w0unds wun seem tuh heal.
diz pain iz juz tuh real.
derez juz tuh much
tt tum cann0t eraze..:+:


*wishuponastar*

*levis jeans`
*n0kia 8250 / 3610`
*hair highlights`
*n0n-denim skirt`
*m0re t0ps`
*c0nverse highcut peace chucks`
*new earph0nes`
*t0te bag



_i wanna be a better pers0n..
n0 matter how much it hurts*


Tuesday, December 28, 2004

heyhey ~ haha yesternite went supper with wen, cin n junhua at bukit timah. ate Yu Pian Mi Fen.. plus dessert sea coconut. and guess wad ?? we saw uncle foo there !!! oh gosh. da world is so small indeed. haha. then i had such a hard time eating my food cos uncle foo kept making us laugh -.-" i think just laughing made mi quite full alrdy manz.. haha.

after that they all went home, i went back bP. at first was under lizhao`s blk cos i pangseh-ed him to go timah supper with em.. so wanted to look for him laa. but he was still over in greenridge so i decided to go over ksl first.. who noes ? i met yilong on da way there ! why always so Qiao, see him wherever i go ! hahaha. then sat at da steps talking.. til lizhao came over. then yilong went home.. and we went walking again. hahx. this time went zw hse that playgrnd.. cos got swings. swing til my butt hurts siaa ~ lol. til abt 4am.. n it started drizzling. i wanted to go home cos it was too cold.. bleh.

well.. ive clarified things with him alrdy. at least now he noes how i feel abt rships n everything. but he still said he`d wait even after mi saying there`re plenty more gers out there who`re better than mi n blah blah.. da sms he sent was really sweet u noe..

"feeling isnt a thing that will be da same to others.. even if there is, they may or may not be mine.. for wad i noe for now.. theres u.. n i dont wanna miss it out for sure as i dont wanna regret for da rest of mi life for not trying n perservering lor.. i want no regrets in my life.. Dong Ma ? =) for mi, yes.. u are gd enough for mi to wait wor.. =)"

when i saw that, i was really so touched ~ n guilty too. yet another one whos gonna waste his time n energy on mi.. haiss. i noe da right thing to do now is to cut off all contact with him in order for him to Si Xin.. but. i dont have da heart to do so. i aint da yiling i was 2yrs ago, when i`d just do that without a hesitation. and hes treating mi so gd.. i really cant find da heart to isolate him. wad am i doing ?? ive no idea.

just hoping that no matter da outcome, we`d still be gd frens. tts all i want.


twinkling*stars @ 7:27 PM