natalieee // linGz.


.ilu* lizhao =) #

`c0ng ni shen shang, w0 xue hui shen me shi ai yu bei ai..
dan ye ying er ni, w0 z0ng yu lia0 jie shen me shi shi wang__

:+: diz w0unds wun seem tuh heal.
diz pain iz juz tuh real.
derez juz tuh much
tt tum cann0t eraze..:+:


*wishuponastar*

*levis jeans`
*n0kia 8250 / 3610`
*hair highlights`
*n0n-denim skirt`
*m0re t0ps`
*c0nverse highcut peace chucks`
*new earph0nes`
*t0te bag



_i wanna be a better pers0n..
n0 matter how much it hurts*


Wednesday, December 29, 2004

im scared that i wont be able to love another guy as much as i loved zw, scared that i wont be able to Fu Chu for him as much as i did for zw in da past. thats da simple reason why i refuse to get into rships anymore. i dont want anyone to get hurt cos of mi..

and yet ? that silly lizhao.. refuses to give up. haiss. i really dont wish to see history repeating itself all over again.. dont wanna keep thinking of how much i hurt jinnie in da past each time i look at lizhao. i dont want him to get hurt, cos i noe im not worth it. hes a gd guy, he deserves so much better. stop history repeating.. is that possible ?

yes. if i revert back to who i was last time.
but i dont want to.

da wisest thing to do now wld be to keep my distance. but hes really being so sweet n nice to mi.. i cant bear to. no matter wad i do, hes gonna get hurt.. yet da only road which can spare him from pain, i refuse to take cos of my foolish phobia.

wadahell is this manz ? feel so so tired suddenly.. sobz.


twinkling*stars @ 7:59 PM