natalieee // linGz.


.ilu* lizhao =) #

`c0ng ni shen shang, w0 xue hui shen me shi ai yu bei ai..
dan ye ying er ni, w0 z0ng yu lia0 jie shen me shi shi wang__

:+: diz w0unds wun seem tuh heal.
diz pain iz juz tuh real.
derez juz tuh much
tt tum cann0t eraze..:+:


*wishuponastar*

*levis jeans`
*n0kia 8250 / 3610`
*hair highlights`
*n0n-denim skirt`
*m0re t0ps`
*c0nverse highcut peace chucks`
*new earph0nes`
*t0te bag



_i wanna be a better pers0n..
n0 matter how much it hurts*


Tuesday, February 08, 2005

maybe after all... im da one who always sabotages my own rships.

read thru caro`s blog.. only da latest 3 entries. 1 was before, da other 2 after. n even tho i have no reason wadsoever to feel this way, im guilty. i feel that im, in a way, da one who perished all her hopes of ever patching back with darl. i feel like da huge brick wall which`s blocking darl from returning to her.

it just makes no sense. cos from wad darl told mi, its caro who was da one who was being ridiculous n thats why they broke up. he said he doesnt have any feelings for her anymore.. so why am i feeling this huge sense of guiltiness right now ?

after all. when they broke up.. i wasnt in da picture yet. i only came in 3mths after that. im not da Di San Zhe.. am i ?

if i were her.. from her point of view, yesh. i am.

i think im silently going mad within.


twinkling*stars @ 3:37 PM